“The decision is mine, and I choose happiness” ― Malori Howell

Hosh.. hosh.. hosh..

It's another bloody Monday. I feel super tired, but I don't know why I (still) can open this blog and write something down. It won't be a period because tomorrow I'm gonna have a class with its homework, which means I have to kinda report it in tomorrow's meeting, but you know I hate reading pdf and finding out the definition of what reading is. I know that's probably it's quite easy, but it's not as seem. I always get dizzy if keep reading those pdfs. Mind my bad habit and procrastination. So, how's life everyone? I just entered the second week of this semester but I already have an idea to skip tomorrow class. It's a good idea, isn't it? Oh shit! remember this #alreadyin6thsemester ?

Anyway, there was no class for 2 subjects today, but I'm confused what things make me even much more tired? What you said? Anxiety? Possible!

Oh I will come back to RHI soon, to meet new students to be taught :) feeling great, so wish me luck! Talking about teaching, today I got TEYL and the lecturer is, in my opinion, one of the great teachers I've ever met. He has kinda heap of ways of teaching. Like he knows everything about teaching stuff. One thing so touchy happen in his class today. I mean I found it so touchy, and made me for awhile thinking that he was crying lilbit. Haha, he was sharing about his grandchild. You know since the subject is about how to teach young learner, so he took his grandchild as the example. He looked so happy and I don't know but it seemed like his eyes are blinking while wondering about his grandchild's learning progress. It was so beautiful and touchy :)

There's something I wanna tell anyway, about what have happened to me. Kinda a big change, yeah some people may said that way. I just think that's it's another step to be better me, hopefully.

*drums rolling*

This!

 I wear hijab, yup finally!

Some people may questioning, no they did it for real, about why I, in the end of the day, decided to wear it. Some of them are shocked, but even more people happy to see my new look. Hoho.

Well, for honest I've been thinking about this few years ago, but I think that it's not gonna be good if you know announce it to other people, like hey folks I'm gonna wear hijab soon.Oh are you kidding me? So, yeah I just told it to my besties. No wonder people got shocked when meet me at the campus wearing hijab for the first time.

I wear hijab several times, but there was one time that could make me steady with this choice. At that time I could feel that hijab gives kinda protection to me, I feel so safe and calm. I feel cool and warm at the same time, if you know what I mean. For second honest, it's not an easy decision. I know that there's no objection of doing so, but I just wanna do it whenever I'm ready, really really ready.

And here it goes~

I do really understand that wearing hijab cannot automatically change people's opinions about you whether you're really wanna be better or you just follow the fashion, but who cares anyway? I wear it because it's a must. I don't even wanna change those perceptions or what they call it? Keeping the good image? Bloody hell! Hijab cannot automatically change you to be holy person who never make fault and it can't erase all your sins. I want to be better, and I find there's no something goes wrong with that, so what's then?

See, like I ever take much attention to other's mocking hohoho. No, it's all their rights to think, comment, or even gossip.

What I know right now is that I feel happy, so much happier, safer, warmer, cooler and even chicer. What I wait everyday is that the time when I put the hijab on my head and give a pin head on it, it's fun and feels so good (hard to explain). So I guess yeah if people said that for a newbie hijaber, they will regret when the just worn it, regretting why they didn't wear it years ago. XD

So, here they are, fresh from the oven of my pictures. I know how alay I am~

See how alay we are~ no how alay I am, okay!

 Thanks for Amme who had taken pictures of mine *smooch*

Ani, Me, Anis and Amme

Look how petite I am! :O

Believe me that the girl beside me is much alay-er than me :p

Kisses and Hugs - Anggra